You asked me today, “How many days until I go back to school?” I can’t tell you the relief it gives me to know you are looking forward to getting back to education. I know everything is different baby, and that 1st grade was cut short, but I can promise you there are a so many people working hard to make sure 2nd grade is the best it can be.
You ask me every day how long Corona is going to last, and I wish I could tell you this mess would be over soon. But the truth is hunny, everything will look different now. For you, so many things look different. Not just for school but at home. I am so sorry Daddy and I put you through that, but know that we BOTH love you more than you will ever know and we are committed to be the best we can be for you, it just has to be individually now.
As you grow up and look back on your elementary years you’ll have two very different versions. The one where your teacher could give you a pat on the back for a job well done, or a hug when the day just wasn’t going right. But you’ll also have this new version. The one where you have to mostly stay in your classroom, and cover that big grin with a shark printed mask. It breaks my heart you won’t be able to share the beautiful smile with your classmates and teachers. But here is what I know; TJ- you’ll be fine. This is hard and it’s an adjustment, but my goodness if anyone can handle it it’s you. Why? Because you are so excited to learn, and make friends. You told me two days ago your favorite thing to do is know people, and be their friend. You make everyone’s day better because you enjoy it. Every piece of it. That's why I know you’ve got this.
If I haven’t told you lately, I’m proud of you. You’ve handled these changes, “the longest summer ever” and all of the new things with grace. You’re seven years old and I admire just how brave you are. You teach me every day and I can never express how much that means to me.
As we head into a new normal know that there are countless people with you. Your teachers are learning a new way to mold your mind, they are needing to change their plans and landscape to keep you save and healthy. They are doing the best they can for you. Tell them they are doing great! They need you as much as you need them. I have seen them missing you. Your classmates are just as confused as you, and they may need your strength to make it through the first few days. Mommy and daddy are here no matter what questions you have. And above all buddy, it’s ok to be mad that everything is different. But please, see the good things in all the bad. You have always been so good at that. You are healthy, your sister adores you more than I ever thought possible and you have a million opportunities at your fingertips. No matter the circumstance of daddy and my relationship, or the disruption this pandemic has caused- you are still you- and to me that is the most beautiful thing.
Thank you sweet boy, for your bravery and the example you have shown. Your sister truly admires you. I worry about her as you head back to school. She mimics you, looks to you for approval, loves you fiercely and wants nothing but the very best for you! She is going to miss you so much those first few weeks, so please be patient with her when you get back home. You have been the BEST big brother to her. Thank you. For sharing your bunk beds with her and opening your heart to her the way you have. Your bond is beyond beautiful and I cannot wait to see how much it grows.
You should know, we had the choice to send you back to the classroom or to keep you home. It’s a heavy decision putting your health at risk. But we chose this because we want the best for you. We learned last year- mommy is not a good teacher! But more than that TJ, we chose it because we know YOU can do it. You can be the role model for those scared and confused students. The smile the teachers need when they are at their wits end, the giggle for all when things get a little too intense. We chose this for you because you are amazing and the world needs your light. You’ve been my light for 7 years, my smile and my daily inspiration and it’s time I share that with everyone. I know you’ll make me proud my love, you always do.
Love you always baby,
Mommy
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